falling-star
17hr ago
I'm working on writing something too, with the direct expectation it's going to Royal Road and will never be formally published. Include me in the shoutout cabal.
falling-star
3d ago
Tonight I got a harsh reminder that house party/illegal show reputation has a very low transference to club environments. Oof. Something to learn from, no where near resting on my laurels yet.
falling-star
6d ago
I finally quit my job. There was just no hope of the business making it. Bumming around now. Think I should be studying for programming interviews.
Been trying to take care of my appearance and act like nothing bothers me. When I pull it off it's surreal how many strangers start talking to me in public and how nice to me people get. When I slip even for a second minute I become what feels like completely invisible. I really wish I understood this vibe management stuff better.
Got sick, lost a few pounds. Better again and going to the gym again. I feel like I've been gaining and losing the same weight repeatedly. Most food seems pretty unappetizing most of the time to me. I have been making smoothies with protein powder every day, so hopefully that starts adding up.
My resolution was to track calories, which I did for maybe a few weeks. I think think I'll order a food scale and actually try again now.
falling-star
9d ago
Thinking about it more, there is one guy "below" me that initially showed a lot of fawning behavior when we first met. I realized a fair bit later he was gay and actively wanted to get topped by me. He figured out I was terminally straight. I always treated him like an pseudo little brother friend. Now I think we're on the same page about that.
There's also the whole pederasty in mentorship thing in ancient Greece.
I think I'm too straight to have the full picture here. I guess these "junior/senior" relationships get complicated when one or both sides has homosexual attraction.
falling-star
9d ago
Two quick points.
- The fawning reaction towards a "more dominant" or "more masculine" man isn't a cuck behavior. It's setting the stage for things like client/patron, mentorship, or big/little brother relationships. The junior party gets protection and/or help developing their confidence and/or social status. I don't know if it's just me but this sort of relationship seems pretty fundamental to straight guy life. I have a handful of people "above" me, and a handful of people "below" me. No cucking involved.
- Weird personal anecdote. I dated a Chinese girl once. I was the first white guy she ever was with. I was pretty insecure about how skinny I was at the time. I found out through gossip that her previous (Asian) exes were taller and more built than me. I asked her how she felt about that. She smiled at me and said "You white boys have your own charm." I never figured out what the fuck she meant by that, but all the comparison insecurity evaporated afterwards.
falling-star
10d ago
My most unrealistic take is that we could probably solve half our problems with democracy by deliberately structuring it so that only around 30% of the population could do things like vote or serve on jury duty. My preferred solution would be to require an exam, military service, or a fuck ton of community service hours before you get these rights. The real intention is for the exam to be the filter. The military and community service operate as a release valve for people thinking the exam is too exclusionary.
falling-star
28d ago
Naw man. Kinky stuff is a nice bonus on top of how enjoyable sex already is. Sex with a 7/10 is pretty great. The sort of kinky sex you like with the same 7/10 is even better. Consider also: people who do kinky sex also frequently have vanilla sex with the same partners. IME a 50/50 split is normal.
falling-star
28d ago
I've had it happen to me. Only with girls from dating apps though. Girls I met through any other context would show up 100% of the time.
falling-star
29d ago
As a counter example: I saw the chainsaw man movie when it came out with a weeb friend. People were maybe a little more overweight than average. Other than cosplayers it was pretty normal. Most people were clearly there with their friends. My friend made a comment that the audience was "gentrifying".
Tracked my calories 6 out of the past 7 days. Actually reaching 3k feels like a fucking crusade. Unpleasant conclusion I'm coming to is I need to halve my caffeine intake to make eating easier. Ordered a food scale. My gym buddies have been super unmotivated lately so I might just switch back to a solo 5x5 routine.
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