Kurtosis_Cobain
Kachow!!!
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Kurtosis_Cobain
4d ago
the problem with introverted fucks like you is that your isolation stems from conceit, you are convinced you are alone by choice and volition and not because you had to get accustomed to your pariah status that only got more ossified over time through repeated social rejection (whether you choose to acknowledge this or not). People around you likely do not hold you high in their opinion and you probably don't even understand what all you are missing out on, at least try to figure out the mental configuration those supposed ''normies'' operate from and then reject it once you have proven your ability to be a part of that social cohesion. The most insufferable dudes I know are both introverted and arrogant about their solitary status
Kurtosis_Cobain
11d ago
day of the true Sabbath seems like the only fitting one if Mammon is who we wish to invoke. Hava Nagila every Saturday it should be
Kurtosis_Cobain
16d ago
how is your health? do you get exhausted pretty easily, do you mostly feel tired? you are operating with this weird ''presence avarice'' and I am wondering if this is just you being really exhausted just surviving, so you are left with very little in your emotional budget to share yourself with others. You must understand though, investing in relationships is important, even if you don't particularly ''feel'' the need to.
Kurtosis_Cobain
16d ago
you would love the new Asterisk Mag post on painkillers, basic information but still pretty good.
Kurtosis_Cobain
23d ago
what you are also looking at is more reporting in queer relationships, the recipient lesbian usually is empowered enough to seek her way out if things go south or get litigation/filing involved. Within a heterosexual relationship however, the recipient woman will likely find more emotional support and ways to cope so leaving a pragmatic alliance like a marriage doesn't make too much sense, if things aren't super horrible and danger isn't imminent. However, this is changing and most women even in hetero-relationships will try to get out at the very beginning of violent outbursts.
Women in general seem to like getting official enforcement involved, with officiating labels that give them a sense of security in the personal realm, lesbians also get married more, thus the misunderstood ''high divorce rate'' statistic that floats around. In general, women are trained to ''secure'' resources and alliances, and the current culture also empowers them to walk out more if things go south. For a queer woman to have fought against the practical norm of hetero-relations (let's be real, the hetero coupling is the best pairing for a multitude of socio-economic reasons), then to have gone so far as to get married to another woman requires a certain level of resilience and ability to strongarm (being queer is genuinely difficult), so the chances of such a person remaining passive and accepting abuse is fairly low, they are likely self-reliant enough to report and get out quick.
Kurtosis_Cobain
23d ago
when I am too wired, I use theanine to calm me down. I have started sleeping naked with eye-covers and I make sure that there's no light peeping in the room while I am sleeping. I cannot cut back on my daily caffeine intake, unfortunately, due to a multitude of reasons and I am not proud of it. I have however found ways to counter it's deleterious effects, high dosages of L-theanine on the weekends so I can sleep peacefully with minimal interference, warm showers help too. I would also look into training practice times, make sure it's earlier in the day and not later because exercise does charge you up in a way, I do know quite a few runners who use energy chews and honey stingers, make sure you aren't inducing any of these in your system and are eating adequately, inappropriate nutrition can lead to poor sleep too but most of these things are likely obvious to you.
I don't agree with the people in here who think meditation or reading will help, when the body is too stressed or wired, none of those things really help, I do have a weird hunch that it's some other obligation/life stress that is eating at you and is needlessly stressing you out, do attend to it if this indeed is the case. The quickest fix is probably a joint (I know, sorry!!!) and 1000mg of L-theanine, which is a lot but I have resorted to it on a few occasions, because the fatigue was more dangerous for me
Kurtosis_Cobain
25d ago
sleep naked
how does any 20-year-old pay for storage fees? there's real logistical and economic considerations at play here even if biology only reserves it's kudos for the youngest candidates
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