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I think you should give your faith a second look. It lines up best with the outlook you have on life, but seeing your dad’s failures up close has tainted it for you. But he is not the yardstick to measure faith by. You can in fact interpret him in the opposite way. He was flawed and hypocritical but this hypocrisy was because in spite of his flaws and failure he recognized to some extent a real morality that was extrinsic to himself. He may have never consciously internalized this but it seems apparent in your description that some of his toxicity was his own cognitive dissonance
I have so many thoughts about Dad. It's been interesting to see the comments on him with such a narrow slice I've presented of him. I thought about doing a @naraburns style writeup on him, but I don't know how to make it interesting. As I've said elsewhere, he's become even more extreme since the divorce, and he's a strange mixture of empathy and complete lack of empathy in favor of brazenly demanding things of you because he's your dad and the Bible says children must respect their parents. I'm pretty sure he hasn't worked at all since the divorce, but he was very reluctant to tell me anything because he thought my mother would take him to court and that I would rat on him as soon as I found out anything. It occurs to me he's never actually bought a house. He moved into the shitty farmhouse that Grandpa already owned. Did some repair work on it and moved in. After the divorce, he moved back in with his parents. Sometime, perhaps a year later, after everyone moved everything out of it, the house burned down. Both parents blamed the other one. I suppose the house burning down also contributed to the "end of everything" vibe I was getting. It really was a shitty house though haha. The wreckage is still there, as it has not been bulldozed.
I know faith is high on this forum, and I applaud your zealotry, but it's funny, my salvation is basically the last thing I'm thinking of right now. If God doesn't understand why I think the things I think, then the game was truly stacked against me all along.
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