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I'm glad you undeleted your post! In exploring my own issues with severe burnout, I stumbled upon some good information about autistic burnout myself, and I believe the criteria for autistic burnout is significant exhaustion and increased social withdrawal along with either reduction in functioning, increased executive challenges, and reduced capacity to mask/camouflage. I had all five of those symptoms in spades, and it sounds like you meet the criteria as well. I'm a lot better than I was when I was at my worst but my executive functioning still isn't what it was before, and my ability to mask/camouflage is still reduced as well. So yeah, you're not alone in experiencing this. In fact, when you talk about swinging back and forth between being more normie and being more radical socio-culturally-politically, that sounds a lot to me like reduced masking.
FWIW, and because you asked, my life is significantly different now than it was before burnout really set its teeth into me, and that's kind of the Thing. The answer to the question of, "what do you do to hold onto things," for me, is as simple as it is difficult: I literally can't hold onto All The Things anymore, and though I think that's more from burnout proper as opposed to autistic burnout specifically, the two were closely intertwined and interrelated in my case. In Showstopper!, the book about Dave Cutler and the development of Windows NT at Microsoft, there was a coder named Walt Moore who was so burned out that he spent the bulk of his time at work developing and playing pai gow poker simulations instead of doing his actual work. I identify a lot with his story, having been barely functional myself for about two and a half years, starting around October of 2021, and the long hard road back from burnout has involved a ton of learning how to really take care of myself, which in turn meant admitting my needs to myself and prioritizing giving myself the time and space to meet those needs instead of just doing without and soldiering on. At the beginning of my digging out, I was not even aware that I qualified for the spectrum, just that I was not normal, and strongly identified with being a geek/nerd and had cultivated an unconscious habit of developing assimilation behaviors, the go-along, get-along normifying stuff, at least to the extent that I didn't get myself duct taped to the flagpole. It turns out that assimilation habits/behaviors take the most out of those of us on the spectrum and are the least adaptive of our coping strategies in the long run. These in particular are things that I've had to re-examine and re-work in my life, as well as the masking/camouflaging behaviors, simply because they take too much out of me and they leave me too drained. Likewise, I've had to adopt a lot of behaviors like walking outside and journaling that help me to process my emotions because not only is that a Thing wrt ASD, but I took the possibly-traditional route of stuffing them into a closet and identifying with my executive brain instead of actually taking the time to deal with them until I hit my absolute limit and crashed and burned. My family connections have changed dramatically, my marriage may well be beyond salvageable, and being given a more focused position at work that allows me to see my progress much more clearly has, along with a growing team of fellow spectrum folk in our IT department, has been a saving grace that has kept me employed, but I could have easily lost or left my job as well. I say all this in the hopes that I've made the gravity of my own situation clear, and to hopefully encourage you to keep listening to what your instincts and intuition are telling you that you need, and to keep doing things for yourself that truly help you and sustain you in life, instead of merely surviving to face another day. That seems to be the only real antidote to burnout in the long run.
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