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Ghost of Quokka's Future

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WhiningCoil

Ghost of Quokka's Future

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My wife had our baby boy on Monday. Kid came too fast for the epidural, so she had him au naturel. Which was how she wanted to have him, but labor is hard and she changed her mind. Baby decided to keep her honest, and speedran the birth canal instead. By the time the anesthesiologist was in the room, baby was a knuckle away from crowning. So my wife got to learn she's way tougher than she thought she was. I'm really proud of her.

Can I just say, I fucking hate doctors scaring the fuck out of us over every little thing? First was a fetal scan where the MFM made it sound like my baby had a bad heart and would need emergency surgery and/or die. Then a fetal cardio walked it way back and made it clear that what was being seen had a more than likely chance of resolving itself after birth. Which it did. Then that same MFM kept riding my wife's ass to induce or cut the baby out ASAP because of some bullshit about how every day of a geriatric pregnancy increases the chance of still birth. Even 5 days before the kid was born, that MFM was telling my wife there was a 1/1000 chance of stillbirth from where we were.

Mind you, all the stats were perfectly normal. Minus the ambiguous heart scan that resolved itself.

Even now after the first appointment, the family doctor was riding our ass that the baby wasn't peeing enough. He'd only last peed at 4 am and it was 11 am at the time. Then he peed in the office, and she was still all "Well, you need to call me and let me know he's peed again before I leave the office or I'll be very worried." This was after she remarked that he looked perfectly healthy, vitals all perfect, good color, nothing concerning about his appearance.

Just... why are doctors like this? My wife's neurotic enough without doctors making her believe every normal variance is a sign that her baby is going to die.

Shit even got to me in that span between crowning and crying. All my posturing that everything was going to be ok, that the MFM was just an asshole, began to crumble and I wondered if my optimism was leading my family into life changing tragedy. It may have only lasted 5 seconds, it may have been a minute or two. I honestly can't say. But hearing him cry for the first time was the most relieved I can ever recall feeling. The baby cried, I cried, and I turned to my wife and she was crying.

Later that night in recovery, I rocked him in my arms and told him about his big sister, the cats and dog that are excited to see him, how funny it is to watch chickens run, and how much better the world now is with him in it.

I think what gets me about this story isn't the rape allegation, but the fact that after everything else only a rape allegation matters. He made the right mouth sounds, so he got a pass on all sorts of other behavior.

It's a shame Democrats threw out their Christian upbringing. Otherwise Platner would be able to say he found God and it's all good now. Since it's a given that literally every single human being seeking public office is a monster in human looking flesh, they really need to come up with some sort of secular redemptive act. I'm not sure donating to the ADL is cutting it anymore.

Imho, outside of a very rare few, the best way to get laid in your 40s is to have gotten married and grown old together in your 20s or 30s. In my 20s I had a fun string of girlfriends I had nonstop sex with. Including my future wife! But I can scarcely imagine that having kept up with aging, peers all settling down without me, career monopolizing more of my time, etc. Plus every time I creampie my 40 year old wife she still looks 25 to me. Beat that.

I mean, asian diseases ravaged Europe for centuries, we dont hold China morally culpable for the black death.

Second, without the benefit of hindsight there was little way of knowing who's diseases would be worse for who on first contact.

That said, smallpox is gone, and syphilis is still going strong, so maybe notch one for new world diseases.

Yeah, I would prefer the lie I was sold about people emigrating here and learning our language, our history, our morals and customs.

But that isn't happening. Not even remotely. We just have random third world colonies committing tax fraud, welfare fraud and immigration fraud on an industrial scale, and we just let it happen. I would enormously prefer an actual war instead of rolling over and letting the third world steal everything that isn't bolted down.

If you want to say only this version of Americans could have done everything its not a claim thats well backed up by evidence if you don't know why.

You know, this is the same argument I saw in a random youtube video ages ago, about why North America is an OP starting position for a civilization. They made all the usual arguments about natural resources, fertility of the soil, and a few I'd never heard before about how especially navigable America's waterways and coasts are.

Except there were people here before the land was conquered and turned in The United States, and they didn't do any of that shit. In fact, there were many, many unique peoples here, and none of them did any of that shit.

So excuse me if I don't entirely buy the argument that anybody living in America would have been as great as The United States. History shows there were, and they weren't.

Yes.

Less flippantly, do I need an explanation for gravity to prove it's effects? Are 250 years of history not enough?

The United States is an exceptional country and no American should take for granted the lottery of life that they won merely by being born in that country.

I hate this. I want to find whoever coined this "lucky to be born a X" meme and torture them in the most luxurious way I can possibly imagine.

There is no lottery to being born in America, any more than there is a lottery for a TSMC foundry to produce silicon chips as opposed to burittos. Americans conquered this land, established it's institutions, and then fucked. They fucked a lot. And they made more Americans as surely as Indians make more Indians, or Africans make more Africans.

The mistake of America is believing anyone else could possibly achieve this. It's resulted in 100 years of global misadventures trying to spread "Americanism" and failing every single damned time when 3rd worldism just drags it back down to the lowest common denominator. And it's going to fail even harder when it tries to make Americans domestically out of another billion third worlders.

You are killing the America you love so much. We'd all be better off admiring it from afar. At least then there would still be something left to admire. I wept during the festivities today with the certainty that America won't exist in another 50 years. I recognize nothing of the country I was born into only 40 years ago already.

I think MW5, Clans and Mercs, are likely to be the last, best MW games I'll see in my lifetime.

I repeat the quote by their defense minister

For every tear of an Israeli mother, a thousand Lebanese mothers must weep. All of Lebanon must burn!

Even taking everything you said at face value, does that quote not seem completely insane? I'd expect some diplomatic concerns about pacifying a restive region, not bragging about committing a second genocide.

I have one mission left in Mechwarrior 5 Clans; Wolves of Tukayyid. The most recent unlock was something i'd never seen or heard of before called a Bane-1, which has ten UAC-2's. The clans fucking autocannon mogged a King Crab. So anyways, that's been fun. I also unlocked a Bane-2 which I think had 4 UAC-10's? Fucking madness.

I think I mentioned it before, but the Wolves of Tukayyid expansion is fairly underwhelming. I mean the missions are alright I guess. Tukayyid is exciting for lore nerds, but the lack of variety in the scenery hurts IMHO. They throw in a lot of classic characters if you read the novels. Phelan, Ranna, Vlad, Ulric and the Black Widow feature prominently in the cutscenes. All two of them it feels like. I hear sales of Clans and it's DLC have been underwhelming, and it shows in how they've cut corners in the production of this DLC with far less cutscenes and story generally. Still, the gameplay is there, so I'm not unhappy with it.

Oct 7th definitely gave Israel a blank check... for Gaza. What the fuck did Lebanon do?!

I'm almost hoping that tweet by Israel's defense minister is misreported or... something. But it's all too believable regardless just from Israel's actions. Absolutely unhinged shit.

It can be difficult to weigh the levels of threat between the dagger at your back and the gun in your face.

What, you don't by the explanation that Israel drops some more bombs on children every time Trump has almost gotten a peace deal because they are saving him from himself? Forcing him to be the hero he was destined to be?

Hero of which nation? Shut up, what are you, an anti-semite?

Like I keep telling people when they ask why I'm reading Tolstoy, the classics are classics for a reason.

How do you balance FIRE with not wanting to be a miserable tightwad? Most specifically interested in if anyone has thoughts on that in context of marriage + children + income gap (let's say 4 me:1 her). A particular potential (pun intended) Mrs. Lagrangian likes travel and activities more than I do and I have trouble thinking about that, especially in context of the income asymmetry.

Yeah, everyone likes travelling on someone else's dime.

I donno man, I was gonna regurgitate my life story because it's late and I'm a few in, but instead I'll leave at this. If you plan on having kids with this woman, you can basically forget everything. And honestly, kids are way better than FIRE.

I had aspirations to FIRE once. Now I can't imagine a more lonely and desolate existence if it costs me my kids who absolutely make that impossible.

I installed Linux Mint around Jan 2024, and I don't think I've booted into my windows partition in about a year. So I finally deleted it entirely and repurposed the space as a dedicated /home/ directory because steam games take up a lot of space.

Good riddance.

I have to use Windows 11 at work, and the little things that are bafflingly worse astound me. I tried to set an alarm, but the fucking alarm app refused to start without an update off the app store which it couldn't get because closed network. When I type in directories directly into the location bar of file explorer, the fucking autocomplete suggestion popups never go away after I hit enter. When I try to right click on a file, different menus pop up depending on whether it's the first or second time I've tried it, and they show different options entirely!

I just... what the fucking fuck is going on with Windows?

I'm still digesting the album. Situation was my introduction to the album via the music video, and got suck in my head first. Make America Fuk Again was a solid opener. But lately I find Viridescent speaks to me the most, having been with my wife almost 20 years now, and loving her just as much, if not more, than when we first met.

10/10, best "Do as I say not as I do" jannie crashout yet. I always thought it'd be me, but I guess that's just how you are with everyone.

I'm late to the party, but I just discovered that at some point Sturgill Simpson started releasing albums as "Johnny Blue Skies". To quote the top youtube comment "This album fucks so hard I wanna leave it money on the nightstand". Can confirm.

Or not? The arguments basically went "I heard native Irish children are feral, she must have deserved it" and everyone who was correct and with both feet in reality wondering what sort of naked anti-white propaganda their opponents could have possibly been smoking.

But I guess tribalism is who/whom the whole way down. All the same, team "I dont think the quakka deserved it" keeps winning.

Well, I switched to gemma4:12-it-qat and it worked a lot better. Made an opencode command that takes a specific file and asks for unit tests on the class in it, and it worked ok. I need to explore setting up a good agents.md file to jump start them on understanding a project. I may check out some random open source project and start fucking around with custom commands. I know the workflow we want is to have some automated review and test creation, so if I can cobble together the right opencode commands, agents, skills, etc to make that easy for anyone to just go /review_and_write_tests and things start happening, great.

I still have no fucking clue what skills are supposed to be. They just look like extra prompts that hypnotize an LLM into believing it can do shit.

Thanks for having an actionable and helpful reply. I'll give these things a try.

I wouldn't expect to get much from a local model

I'm not. It's hard to imagine how I could expect less. I repeat. I told it to write "Hello world!" and a single unit test to verify output. There, quite literally, isn't anything less I could ask of it.

On an unrelated note - do you know why .net projects like to keep their unit tests in a segregated project? Most other languages that I've used have a convention where the unit tests are in a separate folder in the same project.

I donno, why do most other languages comingle their production code with their unit tests? I can't speak for any official reason, but I know managing large dotnet solutions, testing projects need to be flagged with true in it's project file or some shit like that. Otherwise test runners don't find it. They usually also have a bunch of nuget packages pulled in, like xunit or MSTest that your production project won't need. They'll probably have some resources embedded in them to facilitate testing which you almost certainly do not want shipped in production.

Man, I was checking the dependencies xunit3's nuget pulls in now. Shit looks like a maven package.