impossiblepen
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impossiblepen
15d ago
This is half-facetious but... is there any way to address how bad Nampa sometimes smells? We have casually considered moving there from Boise but we're afraid we'll accidentally end up somewhere that reeks when the wind comes from the right direction.
impossiblepen
15d ago
I'll be driving from Boise proper to Nampa this evening. I have to arrive at 5:30, which means I need to leave at 4:20, though it would be a 25 minute drive with no traffic. Whether or not that constitutes "that bad" likely depends on where you are from, but for an Idahoan, it feels outrageous!
impossiblepen
1mo ago
I haven't heard from anyone who liked their "SSRI" that it wasn't actually an SNRI. After years of complete failure of several SSRIs and a mixed effect but finally some benefit from an SNRI, I wish someone would have told me much, much sooner to try Wellbutrin (though I wish they offered it in lower doses).
impossiblepen
1mo ago
Not sure how the labeling differs in other countries but in the U.S. plenty of frozen food still says you need to cook it to 165F for safety even though it's definitely not raw. I feel like it's more likely that it's an ass-covering situation than that the fried chicken was raw. Like, the breading wouldn't even be proper breading if it hadn't been cooked. It would taste and look like raw flour paste.
impossiblepen
6mo ago
You've saved me, thank you. I have the same-aged Pixel 4 and would've taken the same Pixel 10 deal, but I didn't think of the size and know a bigger phone would bother me. Although the info that it's apparently impossible to get a sane-sized phone is tempting me to ditch the smartphone life altogether (a perennial temptation.)
impossiblepen
6mo ago
This movie vaguely traumatized me as a 15-year-old girl who saw it in theatre (with my much-cooler sister, even!). You have articulated why better than I was ever able to myself. Well, the feminist aspect at least. There's also some degree of a message of "no one will ever like you if you aren't laid-back and cool; being uptight and tone-deaf is the worst thing you could ever possibly be." Like, the Stone family isn't portrayed as actually being wrong! They just were maybe insufficiently coy about it, in the movie's eyes, I think.
Weirdly I also kind of liked it, at the time, and also liked it when I recently re-watched it, twenty years later. It's very rare to find media that lays these messages so bare so honestly. I do view it as much closer to a black comedy or a family drama with comedic relief elements than an actual comedy or rom-com though.
impossiblepen
6mo ago
The CS building on my college campus genuinely smelled of unwashed nerds, and was semi-infamous for it. This is "a thing" if ever there was a thing.
impossiblepen
6mo ago
I suspect women who like to hang around a place like this aren't too likely to be offended either way.
impossiblepen
6mo ago
I do like having an angled clipper as well, mostly for hangnails.
impossiblepen
7mo ago
All this BG3 talk is giving me a craving, but I can't bring myself to embark on a new solo playthrough while I'm paused a bit into Act 3 with one friend and at the start of Act 2 with him and another friend, who are both too busy to play recently.
My husband and I just finished playing through Strange Antiquities together and really enjoyed it. Nice relaxing fare while I'm more-or-less on break from my usual semi-tryhard WoW gaming.
I've dabbled in Satisfactory for the first time recently, but think I might not be the right kind of nerd for this game. The technical aspect doesn't grab me enough; I find I'd rather just explore the world.
I'm as terrible at Marvel Rivals as ever but like it enough that I've swallowed my pride and re-downloaded it just to run AI matches to wind down late at night. That game was fun when all the other casual noobs were also still playing and just became painful once that population dropped off. If anyone knows how to get good at this kind of game, feel free to send me a link or something, since I apparently can't just move on lol.
It's about the time of year for my annual Minecraft spurt but I may try to get back into Enshrouded to semi-fill that niche instead. Or I may succeed in logging off and reading a book instead. We'll see.
impossiblepen
8mo ago
If you ever desire to dig really deep into the realm of medical treatment of autism, I highly recommend you check out a blog called EpiphanyASD, written by a German father of a severely autistic boy whom he has been able to treat to the point of being moderately functional.
The first time I googled the phrase "autistic burnout", one of the top results was an article titled "Help, I'm getting more autistic!" I was kind of pleasantly surprised to see that other people experienced it this way--as literally "getting more autistic" when burnt out--because perceiving it as such but not thinking that was possible or typical had me kind of feeling like I was just going crazy. This was in ~2019, shortly after the scales first fell from my eyes and I realized that relating to my (long-diagnosed Asperger's) brother but being able to route around the same inclinations so that I didn't act quite like he does was not the same thing as not being autistic. It's funny to me though, that the common opinion chalks burnout up to psychological factors. As someone with co-occurring chronic fatigue etc. type of issues, it's long been obvious to me that my social function worsens when my physical health worsens, even before the autism possibility had entered my brain. Burnout, in my opinion, is as much an energy or at least medical issue as it is a psychological one.
I live in vicious merry-go-round cycles like this: I overextend myself, live inauthentically to fit in, don't take care of myself because my needs (both in terms of health issues and in terms of autism) are weird, fake, made-up, just be normal bro--and I ruin my health, burn out, withdraw, and struggle to recover until I burn every bridge so I can start over finally listening to my own instincts/intuition again about what my needs are. However, as I get older, I seem to maybe be making strides at leveraging smaller epicycles to lessen the dramatic swings of the mega cycles. The net result, at the moment, is that I have made good strides on my physical health recently* without having indulged in the formerly-prerequisite "complete social withdrawal" step. And I'm feeling pretty rapidly quite a bit more socially functional. And feeling quite a bit of whiplash.
*I've seen it theorized that autistic regression, seen as a uniquely unstable subtype of autism, is usually a case of Autism secondary to Mitochondrial Dysfunction. Given that I have been able to document my own mitochondrial dysfunction, it makes sense to me that over-extending or conversely, improving, my energy could cause fluctuations to the degree I experience. But it might make me more of a weird outlier than I'm giving credit to, idk.
Anyway, the reason I bring this to The Motte: I'm curious if anyone else goes through times in your lives where you are more socio-culturally-politically more "normie" and times when you are more "extreme", outlier, believe things that could get you cancelled, etc? I feel like the one-way-street is the default: you start out normie and something "radicalizes" you (lol). Has anyone else swung back and forth?
I hate to say it but is this, unironically, a female issue? Are most of you are strong men laden with the social-pressure-resistance benefits given by a nice healthy blood level of testosterone, and immune to this changeability? I can't help think about Alex Kaschuta (loved her podcast), who often described herself as "to the right of Atilla the Hun", later being quoted in that hit piece against the online right, after the twitter right ousted her. She seems to have gone from normie left feminist in college, to normie-scaring far right to... whatever she is now, but seemingly something more moderate. It's sad but I also kind of get it. We're not in COVID times anymore: right-wing twitter sucks now. I leave my house and interact with a variety of people. My favorite podcasts have gone away or fallen off. I can't maintain the same psychological (social?) quarantine I used to that made it less stressful to hold would-make-everyone-think-I'm-a-bad-person opinions, and my improved ability to interact socially has my disagreeability softening, leaking out of me by the minute, it feels...
Frankly, I don't think this is just a me thing, just a byproduct of my autistic burnout cycles, or just (but I do think it might be partially) a woman thing. The tone and culture even here has changed since COVID, and the falling off of right-wing twitter is much discussed. To me it's for sure at least partly due to the lack of COVID-era social quarantining, where differences in virus-avoidance behaviors had the two sides of the culture war interacting with each other a lot less in-person.
But honestly the why is not super the point. This is Wellness Wednesday. I can feel this opinion-normifying happening to me, and I think everyone outside these kinds of circles would tell me that's normal and good for me. I know for myself it is not. I will think it's fine while the dissonance eats at my subconscious until it wrecks me again at some later date. Does anyone else experience this? What do you do to hold onto things? Is this why everyone is going to church now? My astrologist (don't laugh) tells me I need to figure out what I really believe to be able to move forward, exist at all really. But I'm feeling so susceptible to I guess groupthink lately that I'm having trouble even embarking on that process. I would love to talk to anyone who relates at all to being in this boat.
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