mrvanillasky
Future apocalypse survivor
User ID: 3273
mrvanillasky
6d ago
What resources did you use?
Agree with everything 100 percent. Will add that Pakistan as a nation is so much worse than India. They take the worst parts of their neighbors and mix in enough resentment leading to the tendency to pick a fight no matter the cost.
Even if it means that they get their teeth kicked in, they would take that deal if it means chipping their neighbors nail. My main gripe is not Pakistan, though. At some point, India and the upper castes in particular have to come to terms with demographic shifts. You simply cannot let electoral democracy play out in a place that has always been a minority rule.
Pakistan is beyond one's abilities, but with Kashmir is effectively Pakistan for most Indians. These issues will spring up as ghetto dwellers get to bear weapons, while people living in gated societies do not. India needs to actually own Kashmir, and that cannot happen if the apparatus and values running it are Indian.
The Indian army is a big unit and it's fairly competent despite the occasional scandals and bureaucratic red tape. Kashmir takes up more resources than any part of India, and people who join the armed forces get stationed there at least once in their lives. That place needs to be truly reclaimed and that requires interventions that go against the beliefs of 1947.
mrvanillasky
7d ago
I'm an out and out reactionary and have seen people summon da joos anytime anything get bad, to the point where any discussion can be halted and sanity excused by blaming them for everything under the sun.
I apologise if I came off strong, I'm used to twitter.
mrvanillasky
7d ago
Moldbug is half Jewish and his writings did more for reaction than most people around him.
mrvanillasky
7d ago
Had to re read this. Spiritual journey for me isn't something that I base my identity on or should discuss publicly. Whether I get burnt or achieve peace is irrelevant, the pursuit of truth is all that matters.
Hari Om!
mrvanillasky
7d ago
I do read Jim from time to time, but I never got his health advice, given that extreme amounts of butter will eventually cause issues. Actual doctors who do work out like the barbell medicine fellas recommend the use of zero-calorie sweeteners and seed oils.
The comments below are even worse commentary on this by Aidan, a guy whom I cite regularly. For the record, I am not the fittest guy, I just don't think that eating mostly meat and dairy can be good long-term.
Weird, I did not feel extremely sleepy after the second 10 mg dose. I have tried other sleep meds before, sove 10 or diazepam, which gave me hallucinatory experiences, I actually did not dislike them lol, but melatonin is very tame by comparison. I think they are considered benzos?
mrvanillasky
7d ago
Please tell me more, what difference did you notice? Compared to 5.
mrvanillasky
7d ago
He lives in Pakistan.
mrvanillasky
7d ago
It just originates from people noticing the Jeet suffix in Punjabi names.
mrvanillasky
7d ago
Subcontinent has extreme levels of scarcity. The big tragedy here is not that the vast majority of people are a part of the underclass, it's that the elites behave just like them.
People gauge your class by how fluent or non Indian sounding your English is. Hell, even the sports people watch reflect their class. Richer ones who are not completely dehati will watch f1 as cricket is seen as a lower class thing.
The Jeet thing is quite funny, a guy literally named winnerjeet singh was a meme a few years ago because he got 3 votes in an election in Punjab.
mrvanillasky
7d ago
Some people picked it from me, it's not used as much now but it'll be soon. My online circle is quite unusual tho lol
That's not an unfair view of things. I have had issues but I'm not crossing borders illegally, posting rape threats or staring at girls on the street. My descriptions here paint a far worse picture because I have a hard time appreciating anything decent in life.
Same goes for my employment issues, I chose to take time off to learn more things than my peers because I wouldn't have found the same line of employment where one hates showing up to office and knows nothing beyond leet code questions to be worthwhile, I did the equivalent of that in college. My sabbatical isn't ideal, but I did the right thing.
I should not use the word as muc,h though, slurs are not nice to use. Indians have a much worse image now than before, having slurs that for people of the subcontinent isn't good in such scenarios.
Also, I mentioned the faint previous ties to say that my analysis of the issue had some indirect inputs from people who were relevant at one point in time. The mentions of caste and other details exist to provide context for whatever is here. I don't go around driving with a "Brahmin" or equivalent sticker on my car. Castes are more or less dead in many ways beyond marriage. I do care about castes but that is a private matter.
mrvanillasky
8d ago
They did make changes to Indu water treaty plans but nothing will happen. India will never do anything to go agaisnt bio leninists, my posting exists to prove that spandrells hypothesis describes the decaying husk of erstwhile glorious Aryavarta.
The guy who took responsibility for this is the same guy from 26/11, the Mumbai attacks. They will kill some minor members, the media will show Modi laser eye edits with phonk music and people will accept a new low as the normal.
mrvanillasky
8d ago
I actively played a role in this unfortunately, twitter is the only place where you find any semblance freedom, though it's still terrible, pajeet twitter became a thing.
Indians, the upper classes have always seen themselves as different people from the underclass, so Sikhs being the target of the slur and it being used people around them had an impact. It's not a popular term at all but it will be.
4chan is undefeated, check out bharatchan.com for more info
Decolonisation is a weird term. People who use it here remind of the Hindi term dehati, its closest translation would be hick I guess. There is a growing online population of people who want to "decolonise" which means becoming more afghanistan like but still staying liberal lol.
"True decolonisation" here would be like Kashmiris seeing the Hindu rule that civilised the place as evil, hence justifying current acts of violence. South Africa and Zimbabwe have become actively worse economically.
I hate the word because it is used mostly by bioleninists. India cannot "decolonise" unless you have revolutions against the upper castes, as they were here far longer than the Brits, at least that's the bioleninist narrative here.
It's quite scary. "youth" in Kashmir would prefer living in stone age poverty over being mildly civlized.
Hope they are safe for now.
Yeah, I don't fully agree and jews themselves exist in distinct groups. Asheknazis are different from sephadrics.
A jew using the word kike and me using it are different things, ditto for pajeet. There is an underclass and it now has a collective name.
And all this happened because Sikhs, telugus and some others abused the living shit out of the migration system so bad that anyone sane would vote for remigration. The people whose antics got the word coined are a good chunk even within the west. This is a terrible thing because most people cannot differentiate between a hard working lawyer who migrated on his own from some city in Himachal vs a guy who got there through illicit means.
I should not be using the word as much, I think you're right now that I think about it.
mrvanillasky
8d ago
I know, I got 60 tablets so can really return them now.
mrvanillasky
8d ago
In India, people use it to refer to anyone who belongs to the underclass or acts like they are a member of it. It started as a slur for sikhs via 4chan. It is used as a catch-all for south asians who act in a way befitting a slur, which is most of this place, unfortunately.
mrvanillasky
8d ago
Math and CS
I finally hit 12k on mathacademy, my mentor sent me a book, "the courage to be disliked" as a gift for hitting 12k. It seems trivial to me at least, 200 hours of math, could I not have done all this faster? is this even worth celebrating? But I know that it took me a lot of effort. I nearly flunked out of my uni in my first year as I did not remember any math at all and it fucked my grades and confidence permanently, I now know more than any of my classmates did since you barely get taught much beyond high school. My progress CS wise has been kinda alright, I realised that boot.dev does not have enough programming volume, so I will do a bunch of books and projects alongside it to be better. I partake in atcoder weekly contests. I never go beyond the first question but the sight of a contest would scare me. As far as I can remember, even when I picked up soccer, i was always very afriad of stuff, what if someone passes the ball to me, as a result I never got better and had to play with kids a year down after my first year, which is why I quit.
I went on exercim and I could solve the problems there with some ease. This is not a lot, but I could not see myself doing anything in my own head, ever. I list this out because I truly do appreciate that I have gotten better. The programming concepts I plateaued on and could never get past seem easy now.
My workouts are doing ok, too. I add a rep to every single exercise every week. I work out three days a week, all three days have different exercises, and I have been able to progress so far. I do not miss days and try to do some rehab work on my off days. Yesterday, after I got back home, I felt some pain in my right shoulder. Is my slap tear back? I was super concerned and went to the physio. He called me a pussy, laughed and told me to consider smoking weed as a joke and come back when I am stronger. I felt relieved.
Spiritual practise
This is the major update. @TowardsPanna once suggested that I meditate for longer durations. I had my first experience, shaktipata, on the 14th of Feb. Well, yesterday, after I hit 12k, I sat for my session. Every time I felt that I was going to get distracted, I relaxed my attention and somehow became more attentive. By the end, I felt extremely sensitive, my alarm went off, and my mind was blank. I was undergoing my second spiritual experience. My senses were in overdrive, I felt a sense of equanimity for the world. All my worries felt pointless, it's difficult to describe any of this with words. All the accounts people write about this are very real. The world seemed divine. I then had my injury scare, which did wreck my evening, but until then, I was super happy. I discovered Kashmir Shaivism via my mentor, too. The recent attacks in Kashmir also happened yesterday, though I stopped feeling bad since I know the government will never fix issues there.
Overall, I am doing better, slightly. The math stuff is not for direct jobs. When I started, I was too distracted to even read textbooks properly. mathacademy, more than math, instilled basic discipline and a belief that with proper drilling, I could, in fact, learn more. My parents do not know any of this, and the most I can do is post my small incremental steps here. I also started 10 mg of melatonin at night, it does not do much but hey, this place did start from a psychiatrist's blog, so I had to mention it.
Kashmir and the eternal motte and bailey of the soyjeet mind
Yesterday, terrorists, muslim terrorists, killed innocent tourists in Kashmir. They asked people their names, checked if they were circumcised or not, to ensure that the people killed were Hindu. The reaction to this news has been predictable. The right wing or the boomer wing wants more state control and will be fine with 24/7 mandatory survellance of every cell phone whilst the online soy left is back to its motte and bailey games. You can check places like /r/librandu, /r/kashmiri and /r/vaushv for takes there where people cannot openly celebrate it, so they have to resort to calling religions bad. "Religions are bad, we must all be atheists". This is thinly veiled, though I am not coming out of my hiatus to link to an unfortunate tragedy or point out logical fallacies.
Kashmir has been unstable since its independence due to being run by a tiny Hindu population and a large Muslim underclass. Indian independence meant that the feudal states would be disbanded and democratic elections would replace the ruling class. This meant death for Kashmiris. The place was on the brink of collapse, only saved by Jamwals, a nearby Rajput clan, literally buying it from the Brits and allowing Kashmiri Pandits breathing space. Both groups are upper caste, the highest two varnas and made up nearly all of the Hindu population of a muslim place.
This bit of history is important to understand recent attacks. Kashmir, at one time, was a place with quite a few Buddhists. Kashmir Shaivism, the local religious sect of Hinduism, was not on bad terms, and plenty did convert, unfortunately post post-Islamic invasions, you saw Muslim populations rise via conversions. The higher caste Hindus there, the Brahmins, the Kashmiri Pandits, were facing active persecution, and the religion itself was nearly dead. Until the State was established.
Jamwals were mercenaries from the neighbouring Himachal Pradesh, and very likely descendants of the same stock as me, as once claimed by the current King. Shaivism and the Kashmiri Pandits were saved, but things would get worse. The largest displacement started in 1991 with the exodus of Kashmiri Pandits from Srinagar and since then, they have been living in various parts of the nation, unable to ever go back to Srinagar.
The underclass actively resented the ruling class. Unlike Buddhists, muslims did not like Hinduism and seeing a minority that is responsible for every single thing good about your culture that can whip you at any time did not sit well with them. 1947 offered a break with Pakistan, a nation formed simply to support the rights of Mujeets (muslim pajeets) and quasi socialists like the INC, led by a kashmiri pandit in Nehru being squarely against the Dogra Dynasty. The problem India now faces is that the people who were displaced can never return unless you allows Kashmir to escape the laws of India.
The Indian state is a nanny state, whilst Americans can own guns and even hunt, anything beyond a knife will get you felony charges. Given that the state runs on explicit bioleninism, this meant that Islamic ghettos here become no-go zones. Police officers do not enter these ghettos, and you would find azaan playing in the background in most Indian cities simply because people live in secluded places. Kashmir today is that ghetto, but instead of 5-10 percent of the population, it's closer to 99.
India can never allow its citizens the right to own guns and rule a piece of land with any amount of sovereignty, this act actively delegitimises the state. Having a place next to you where people lead better lives with actual freedom would raise questions no one wants to answer. Kashmir will keep getting worse, the area will get more militarised, the mujeet youth will take up anti hindu activities more as they get less options for the future due to economic collapse and Indian state will intrude furhter into the lives of ordinary citizens.
My own biases are quite apparent. I came to this place a broken man. I was 20, and I was sure that my life would collapse sometime soon. I was able to change my ways this year due to my discovery of Kashmir Shaivism(not a Kashmiri btw). My family itself has personal ties or at least used to have ties with the Dogra Dynasty's current head and also the muslim ruling class and their last popular chief minister, whom I will not name for privacy concerns. The locals will always hate the Hindus, the leftists here do that too, they are just too cowardly to admit that they do too. Motte and Bailey was my favourite slatestarcodex post, helps explain a lot of what I grew up seeing.
mrvanillasky
19d ago
It is amazing if you have friends over, also it costs more here than in the UK I guess but a fun experience regardless.
mrvanillasky
22d ago
But if you consume it right away, you're good. I posted the recipe, it's cheaper to make it than buy in Indian I guess, I don't buy liquor so dunno how expensive what even is.
Still worth making, use a good recipe. Condensed milk, cream, but of chocolate, instant coffee, various extracts. Works well.
Violence is never the solution for the weak, which is what the right is. If anyone who is right-leaning engages with violent methods, people will make an example out of him and you will see far worse kinds of censorship than 2021 but for decades.
Moldbug was right when he called violence a false path to power.
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