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Crosspost: Reflection on Becaming a German Citizen

By request, I am crossposting my post on becoming a German citizen for discussion here.

Hello fellow Mottizans, I have emerged from my lurker cave to share good news with you all: I have become a German citizen! But not through naturalization or birth; I used an uncommon route with a new and somewhat strange process: a StAG section (§) 5 declaration. While going through this, I had learned a lot about that citizenship laws of Germany and some comparisons with other countries, as well as spending (too much) time browsing various expat and citizenship forums and subreddits. I’d like to subject you to share with you what I’ve learned in this weird journey, through intergenerational citizenship and questions of national identity.

Background

With so many immigrants out there, why should you listen to me, an American moving between western countries? Well, I, personally, value it more when people put in effort for something with less assured payoff; few want to split lottery tickets, everyone wants to split the winnings. Similarly, I moved to Germany as someone with only German heritage, as a normal immigrant, and then more than a year after that a new law offered me a privileged path to citizenship through legal magic. In short, I committed to Germany and then received the winning lottery ticket.

A bit more about my path: I moved to Germany in 2020 with the EU Blue Card for highly qualified immigrants. I chose Germany because part of my family was from Germany, and in the typical American style I considered myself German-American. I had visited Germany and liked it, although I knew visiting and living somewhere are two very different things. But what I would really like to stress is that visiting Germany felt like visiting a home, a place that felt natural. I’ve visited plenty of other countries, and everywhere else it was clear that they were foreign, “alien” countries. It was obvious when I was in Japan that no matter how much I might like visiting castles or eating ramen, Japan would remain a foreign country. When it was unclear whether I would be still working in Germany, a friend suggested that I work with them in the Netherlands, and a big hangup was that the Netherlands was a foreign country, this despite the fact that they speak more English and I would be around more English-speaking expats. Germany was the ancestral homeland, and no other country could ever replace that.

German citizenship is based primarily on jus sanguinis, citizenship by blood: someone is a German citizen at birth because their parents were citizens. But this was, in the past, primarily patrilineal. In fact, the German citizenship in my family was cut off when my German grandmother married a foreigner: she automatically lost her German citizenship, rendering her stateless and all her children non-Germans, including my father, and all of her grandchildren were not German either, including me.

In August 2021 Germany passed an amendment to the Staatsangehörigkeitsgesetz (StAG), or nationality law. The new StAG § 5 allows those who, to quote the federal authority, “were previously excluded by gender-discriminatory regulations from acquiring German citizenship at birth may now acquire it by way of declaration. Briefly, the post-war German Basic Law (a constitution) forbids gender discrimination, and so those who were excluded from acquiring citizenship due to this gender discrimination could claim it back; for example, until 1975, German women would not pass down citizenship by default. The process is new enough that the relevant authority here in Germany, in a major city, did not know about it. But I collected all of our old documents, submitted my application, and now (as of the time of writing) the certificate is in the mail in hand!

I did it, I became a German citizen! I did not naturalize, I gained citizenship through declaration (queue up, “I didn’t say citizenship, I declared it!”). I did not have to reside in Germany for 6-8 years, I did not have to speak German, pass any test, pay any money or do anything at all but submit a few documents and citizenship was handed down in a puff of magical legal smoke by a bureaucrat I’ve never met before. If I suffered some brain damage I could commit terrorism or racially motivated crimes, things that would have excluded me before, and still keep the citizenship (I don’t think I’ll test that though). And my children will also be German citizens from birth, and their children, and so on forever, just as it had been passed down to me from forever ago (well, at least since 1871).

But importantly, I haven’t been saying that I became German. I don’t speak German, I didn’t grow up in Germany, and neither did my parents. By the Basic Law, I am a German because I hold German citizenship, but I try to look past the purely legal standing. I don’t think the idea of who is German has a really clear and universal answer; different people and different Germans give different answers. Perhaps we can talk about the traits of Germans, but until we have access to the pure and perfect German Form, arguments are really all we can get. I will reference that concept of being a German plenty though, and the legal vs. cultural German.

That gives my background and stake in the matter, and it will make for a nice dinner party story but isn’t that important. In fact, nothing really changes legally for me anyway, my permit covered it all before. I think it’s much more interesting to talk about what I’ve learned along the way, as it might actually be interesting and useful for everyone else. So here it goes!

The Strangeness of Descent Laws

German citizenship by descent is a mess, but it’s interesting to take a little dip into the law. Before I only said that German citizenship is based on descent, which glosses over many of the complications that arise in tracing that path. A nice guide on the process can be found here. The US (and most countries in the Americas) use primarily jus soli or birthright citizenship, i.e. you are a citizen of a country if you are born in that country, but also has citizenship by descent. But it’s much more restrictive; in particular, while German citizenship by descent is basically limitless, US citizenship by descent requires that if e.g. the child has two citizen parents, at least one resided in the US at any point, or if only one parent is a US citizen they must have resided in the US for at least five years. I call this a “sunset clause” in citizenship, something that terminates citizenship automatically without a connection to the home country.

Without a solid sunset clause in the German citizenship by descent, you get some (in my personal view) strange lines of descent. Someone whose great-great-great-grandfather left Germany in the late 1800s can be a German citizen directly if it happens to pass only through the male line in key years. Compare this to someone whose German mother married a foreigner and they were born in 1948; their path to citizenship would be under StAG §14, and they have to establish a close connection to Germany, such as speaking German and having close family members in Germany. Here we see that you can only be a legal German if you establish that you are already a cultural German. Add on to this complications such as if your parents naturalized before or after you were born, if you served in a foreign military, if you every voluntarily gained citizenship of another country, and it gets complicated. To note, Germany has added a sunset clause: if a German citizen is born abroad after 1999, any of their children born abroad only retain German citizenship if the authorities are notified before the child’s first birthday. No more surprise citizenships by descent a hundred years down the line.

All of this has led to a lot of people sorting through old paperwork to find out if they are secretly German citizens or can become one. I like to point to the growth of /r/GermanCitizenship as part of it, but the perhaps better known example is for Italy, where it is popular enough to have consular wait times in years and a CNN article about it. I’ll just voice my personal opinion that all of this is a little strange to me; when one out of sixteen or thirty-two of your ancestors at a particular level came from a particular country, it’s hard for me to see where exactly your connection comes in. The legal case may be perfectly fine, but the cultural part falls through. I normally see it chalked up to “honoring ancestors” or “keeping their memory alive,” which turns into an excuse to have a nice passport and travel the EU visa-free as far as I’ve seen.

And I should mention that Germany, in principle, discourages dual citizenship. If you naturalize, you normally must give up other citizenships, if it is possible and doesn’t cause undue hardship. Notably, the fees to renounce US citizenship are high enough that the authorities may permit you to keep US citizenship if you make less per month than the fees, $2,350. It also permits dual citizenship if other citizenships were gained automatically, i.e. from birthright. There are many exceptions nowadays, but the principle still exists, and causes problems sometimes when e.g. people are forced to choose a nationality.

Finally, I will point out that StAG §5 vs. §14 (post- vs. pre- Basic Law) seems weird to me. A German woman could lose her citizenship by marrying a foreigner in e.g. 1947, have a child in 1948 then one in 1950; the first would have to prove their ties to Germany, while the second would get in without any restrictions, but in both cases the relevant legal situation that caused the loss of citizenship is the same and only stopped in 1950(ish). For the second child, the claim would be that because the Basic Law forbids gender discrimination, they were unfairly discriminated because they should have been able to obtain citizenship from a female parent. I’m not a jurist but the legal idea seems fraught: how could laws prohibiting an action in the future justify retroactive corrections? But §5 covers much more than that, affecting people born as late as 1993.

But the biggest takeaway from all of this is that I have the impression that citizenship laws oftentimes are capricious and arbitrary, relying on old documents that some may or may not have and offering various paths or restrictions that change over time. Countries try to both preserve a legal basis for citizenship while trying to reasonably restrict it, while working under changing social views and massive changes in the way the world works.

I think a look at the citizenship laws is helpful mostly to find out that they don’t really answer anything but a legal question, which is important but not what I’m after. I hope no one thinks that someone born to a German mother and a foreign father in 1974 is definitely not a citizen while a sibling born in 1976 definitely is, even if the legal situation is clear.

The Reddit Expatriation Community

That’s enough about citizenship laws then. I was fascinated by (potential) immigrants, especially on Reddit, that I came across in my browsing. As an American, I grew up with the idea that America was the land of immigration and that immigration only really flowed one-way. I think the statistics bears this out, with the US having one of the lowest shares of its population living abroad. Why would someone leave the freest and richest country?

I feel like this is changing, slowly. As other countries become richer, it becomes less clear that America is the automatic best option, and it is probably easier; I can do things like videocall my parents every week and translate written text on my phone, things that make it vastly easier to emigrate. And let’s be clear, the advantage of being a natural Anglophone is huge. On Reddit, which I think is primarily dominated by Americans and Anglophones in general, some of the migration-focused subreddits have seen a lot of growth: Amerexit, iwantout,and expats. Those are my three favorite (or at least most entertaining) subreddits, and they run the gamut from “America sucks, I want to leave!” to “How can I leave my current country (serious answers only)?” to “Living in a foreign country sucks in so many ways.” Pick your favorite, I guess. And like in everything else, politics is the mind-poison in immigration. But there are many common themes; I’ll reference posts without linking to avoid inter-subreddit drama.

I think most of these immigrants, and probably most immigrants in general, are what I would call “materialist immigrants.” Most people are looking to improve their economic situation or living standards. How they rate these things is up to them; someone may value high salaries directly, while others value more consistent healthcare coverage or walkable neighborhoods. If they’re from a western country they may consider themselves (and others like them) an expat instead of an immigrant, but it all amounts to the same thing. Even that German citizenship guide I linked before explains the benefits of becoming a German citizen in almost purely economic terms: live and work in the EU! Travel visa-free in so many places with a German passport! Go to university for free! If you’re destitute, Germany will take care of you! Drawbacks: none, you don’t have to learn German or pay any taxes or do anything at all for anyone else.

And the discussions reflect this living-standard/economic focus, and an entirely Ameri-centric view. Currently in /r/AmerExit, someone is hating on the US because… (checks subreddit) they can find cheap mineral water while on vacation in Italy. No, I’m not joking, it’s the first point in a top post at the time of writing. Someone may fear American politics enough to instead move to Turkey, a country that literally went through an attempted military coup in 2016 and has a nice book review regarding Erdogan-as-dictator on ACX. Or a contemporary favorite, overlooking the fact that many countries have more strict abortion laws than some US states.

When looking for somewhere to go, I see so often that people think of moving to completely different countries, treating them all the same as if “western European” covered everything they need. One person might say Germany and… Wales? How about the Netherlands, Spain, Italy, Germany, France or the UK? Another might want to move to Ireland or Scandinavia, but they speak fluent Spanish. Countries are interchangeable, as long as they have some greenery, good weather and everyone there aligns with their values. Everyone is “willing to learn the language,” a completely costless declaration that I always translate to, “I may learn to swim if you throw me in the middle of the ocean.” Even at the end of the natural process, I can see someone declare that they are finally an “EU citizen” after eight years as if their citizenship was granted by Brussels and not their home country.

Beyond the standard internet/Reddit stupidity, these feel like they cover an individualist- and money-focused worldview. And it naturally feeds materialist immigration that disregards the people who actually live in these places, which causes critical problems in adjusting to a life in a foreign country. Remember what I said about /r/expats? It’s the opposite version of /r/AmerExit, where people have gone to a foreign country and found that, yeah, it’s not America. This is what happens in the culture-clash. The day-to-day reality of living in a country that sees the sun for a few hours a day in the winter sets in. Of dealing with people who will always treat you like a foreigner. Of being far away from family and former friends. It’s tough to live somewhere far away from home, and it’s tough to know that before you actually make the move.

But… why is it tough? I haven’t seen many expats complaining about their jobs, most complain about the people around them and their social life. And the world seems very thoroughly Americanized: I visit American-style department stores, see advertisements in English, I can almost always ask to speak English with people, it all sounds very convenient to and for me. They have the healthcare and sparkling water they so desperately desired. What’s missing? Why can’t they assimilate?

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I hate Europe for what it is.

You may not experience this because you're an American and everyone thinks highly of you, but Europe has a certain strict hierarchy of countries. Simply put, you are better if you are from some countries, and worse from others.

So if I understand correctly, I could theoretically be eligible for German citizenship by virtue of my male line ancestry stretching back to a defecting Hessian soldier during the American Revolution?

So if I understand correctly, I could theoretically be eligible for German citizenship by virtue of my male line ancestry stretching back to a defecting Hessian soldier during the American Revolution?

No, because Germany was not a state until 1871. There is a nice explanation on Reddit going through the various cutoffs.

It can extend back further than that though. About the furthest back one can go for the last ancestor is 1904; before 1914, every 10 years Germans abroad needed to register themselves at a consulate or lose their citizenship. This does mean that a male German born in e.g 1860 can emigrate in 1900 and have a child in 1904, who will then pass down citizenship to males to the current day, minus some potential complications aobut the post-2000 sunset law.

If they’re from a western country they may consider themselves (and others like them) an expat instead of an immigrant, but it all amounts to the same thing.

Expatriates are foreign workers. They go to another country to work there, but will return home. An immigrant goes to stay.

It kind of sucks they have no language requirement. You should speak a country's language. No matter how many people speak English, you're still stuck in the English bubble. I know people who have lived in other countries for over a decade and still don't speak the language. It's sad, honestly.

Expatriates are foreign workers. They go to another country to work there, but will return home. An immigrant goes to stay.

The dictionary definition of expat is just "someone living in a foreign country," so of course all migrants are expats too! But the usage is separate. It's really a motte-and-bailey situation. The more neutral version of expat vs immigrant used is like you say, whether they intend to return home or not. Wikipedia though gives the note that expat is more commonly used for "educated professionals, skilled workers, or artists." That's the class divide rearing up: if you're a poor unskilled worker you get to be a low-status immigrant, but if you're a high-flying professional you're an expat. Oftentimes this directly translates into racism: if you're from a developed country (and white!) you're an expat, while if you're from Africa or Asia you're an immigrant no matter your profession. It's all status games, and it's interesting to see how it plays out.

No matter how many people speak English, you're still stuck in the English bubble. I know people who have lived in other countries for over a decade and still don't speak the language. It's sad, honestly.

The expat bubble is real! I would generalize it to more than English too, although as a lingua franca it might be the most common.

If you're a poor unskilled worker you're not going home again. You're staying. You left home in the first place because your home country sucks and there's no work there.

Expats don't stay. Eww, gross. They're in Shanghai this year, Dubai the next, then back home in London, then a couple years in New York. They're assigned around by their companies and don't have much of a choice about it.

First off, willkommen daheim.

You're the kind of immigrant I wish all immigrants were, and I further wish that our immigration policy and infrastructure were modeled in support of this desire as opposed to the materialist cosmopolitanism they currently support. But let that be all for politics, in so far as I can keep myself in check, because that's spoken of frequently enough on the Motte.

Instead, Heimat.

Heimat is probably the most important concept in my life. At best I feel somewhat reduced when away from it, at worst outright uprooted. Heimat is source of great strength and comfort. It also seems impossible to communicate its meaning to anyone who does not already know it. And sadly more, many people who reveal a preference for it still consciously and publicly reject the concept. But you profess to have migrated for it. And I believe you. Heimat is at least slightly different for everyone, and many people will try to reinterpret it to mean something more urban and cosmopolitan than it usually does, but you come here and accept the term as-is, explaining it almost exactly as I myself would understand it.

You mentioned your Grandmother's cooking and her insistence on your father's Germanness - what did the latter imply? How German was your father, and how German was your upbringing? What other points of contact did you have with German culture? How come you could accept Germany or some specific part of it as your Heimat when you were born and raised an ocean away?

There are two components very central to my conception of Heimat that I have a hard time imagining you accord similar importance to: Language and Landscape.

Language is probably obvious. Some historians and poets described Germany as a nation of one tongue (though with many dialects, of course), and it makes sense to me - genetically we're fairly mixed for all that I know, and Germany has no real political founding myth either. Language though, that seems to work for German ethnogenesis. And it works for me personally - when I hear my dialect spoken, I know I'm home. When my child is so far barely able to string two words together but consistently renders those in dialect, I know that she and I will share a piece of Heimat. But you describe your German as minimal, so does language actually feature prominently in your Heimat?

Landscape is another one. That one is probably less obvious than I feel - most people nowadays spend the majority of their time indoors, and most step outside only to find themselves in artificial, urban spaces. But whenever I lived in a city, I felt distinctly heimatlos. It's even worse now that I'm back in the countryside; visiting large towns and cities feels like entering a completely different country. And I don't just mean that they're cramped, filthy and full of foreigners - I mean you can't see the landscape. Standing in a city, for all that I can see, I really might be in any other country. But it's not just urban/rural. When I visited the North a few months ago, I was constantly amazed by people's ability to live in a landscape so flat and featureless. Granted, they have the sea, which is awesome, I envy them for that, but still - the act of climbing a hill or traversing a valley cannot come naturally to them, similarly to how I'm usually left awestruck when I visit the alps and see actual mountains. The point of all this being - landscape shapes the mind. But you must have grown up and lived in a completely different landscape, with views very unlike those where you live now. Maybe you even live in a city now. So I'm guessing that landscape also is not a core part of your Heimat.

I'd branch into some other components as well - like, architecture: What an effect does seeing Fachwerk have on you, if any? Or soundscapes: How do you feel about cows and churchbells and the cries of hawks? But those are often so strictly regional that there's probably no common ground unless you happen to live next door.

In any case, gute Nacht.

I think that the Heimat and being German (or any other identity) is less about a current state and more about what could be called an attractor, i.e. it is not a single state to achieve but a point which one approaches. Germans have continuously changed, and each one has their own different identity. But languages, food, architecture, and even landscapes evolve over time; did the Germans of 1500 have less "German" cuisine than the ones today because they did not have the potato? I wouldn't say so; instead, the cuisine evolved over time, took in new items from the Columbian exchange and throughout remained German. This is easy when you are already in the attractor, as you evolve with it and all together, but if you're outside it's not trivial to get close enough to the attractor to latch on, especially when you have to leave another safe and comfortable one.

I don't think my upbringing was particularly German, the points of contact were minimal, and it's tough to describe the water you swim in anyway. But I think the American identity is particularly flexible and mutable, and makes it easy to have a secondary identity. I've sometimes thought of the American identity as being like white paint; if one mixes other colors together they tend towards brown, but mixing a color with white paint tends towards that color, and in the same way mixing the American identity with others is easier than mixing two other identities. And that preserved identity provides a Schelling point when fixing an identity out of all the myriad options; I was able to swap attractors a little easier than others then when it came time. It probably helps that I grew up in the Midwest.

I think language is one of the most important parts of the Heimat! My father grew up in a home that spoke mainly German, but by the time I came around most of that is lost. It's something I do wish I had taken, and now it feels like being separated from everyone else by a glass wall where I can mime the actions but I remain cut off. I should be learning German more and taking classes, but the akrasia is real. Still, I think that I am pushed more to learn German on my own than e.g. my wife, who has taken classes and done more formal work but speaks less than me. That heritage provides impetus, and a willingness to learn German qua German instead of German qua "the language I need to get around in this foreign land." It's funny that you bring up dialects, because when I travel around Germany now I definitely notice the accents and feel much more at home when I return and hear the accent change back!

I grew up in the Midwest, and the rolling green hills are just as present there; I try to spend plenty of time outdoors (is that not also a German thing?). When I first came to Germany it was for work, and when I eventually moved it was to the same location. Part of that is because the terrain matches so well. I also lived for a time in the American Southwest, and it was obviously different: dry sage fields as far as the eye can see, orange-red canyons, bare rocky mountains, etc. I liked it, but only some parts, and it was obviously not home. I do think it's interesting that the more Hispanic Southwest matches Spain while the more German Midwest matches Germany more. I do live in a city, and I would echo your sentiment about it being more artificial and globalized than the countryside, but it does ok; I still get to attend the Volksfeste in the local Platz.

I'll end with a note that my grandmother was from east of the Oder-Neisse line. My core Heimat from my family is completely gone, forever. There are things I find strange that the local Germans find normal and vice-versa. But identities can spread out too, so I take up the broader German identity while I build up a new one where I live. I'm sure my children will have a different Heimat than I do, but they'll always be caught in some of the same attractors.

Death by 1000 (Cultural) Cuts

An insightful and heartfelt Reddit comment put the culture-fit problem as something like a multitude of tiny interactions that cause friction for the immigrant and make it clear that they do not “belong” in that society. In the end, they’re left miserable and desperate for something that brings them comfort and familiarity, a sense of home in a foreign land. That’s hard to quantify, but we can work around it a bit and hopefully get some sense of it. To borrow a little from conflict vs. mistake theory, I see assimilation oftentimes described as a problem to be solved, a set of cultural ideas and language to learn. Germany’s naturalization requirements include B1 German language level and passing a 33-question test. That doesn’t seem like much; a B1 level may be 500 hours total of study, and I see timeframes of months for that. How can a rich American expat fail to integrate anywhere, when the skills they need take just a few months of work?

The mistake theory view treats assimilation like a set of instructions: cultural problem in, cultural solution out. It treats it like… well, like a language, you just have to learn it and speak it fluently to fit in. There should be no reason that one cannot assimilate into any and every culture, you only need to learn the cultural framework to give the right answers at the right time. I’d even say it treats it like a Chinese room of culture.

But the Chinese room substitutes external verification for internal motivation. Yeah, you can answer me these questions (thirty) three, but does that mean you understand them? Do you care about them? Even then, does it really make you a citizen? Why would a set of multiple-choice questions denote the bright threshold between our ingroup and outgroup, the citizens and the foreigners? To give you an idea of the test, check here, it includes such stumpers as “pick out your state’s flag” and “what was the war between 1939-1945 called?”. I took the test, despite speaking only minimal German, for a state that I don’t live in and passed with 21/33; it’s just not that hard.

What might a conflict theory view suggest? Well, one useful element from it is that the direction of movement is what matters; things never stay the same, conflict is pervasive over scarce resources. Then the struggle is not a matter of fact to be decided with a solution at the end, but a struggle of power. While conflict theory is based on conflict between social groups, I would apply it here to the internal conflict of assimilation: the immigrant, to adjust, does not need just to learn the language and culture but must internalize the “culture” in a generic sense; not a set of rituals to observe but a set of values to hold. Though we have an end in sight but are still missing the process for how to get there.

To take a stab in the dark, I think identity is a critical part. Inside of you there are two wolves. No, sorry… Inside of you there are multiple identities belonging to different communities, all with different ranges both in literal distance and figurative human connection distance. I would say that my immediate family is one, but then my father’s family and my mother’s family are different but also communities I belong to, and then my home town with some traditions, and then my state, and then my country, and then the Anglophone community, and so on with overlapping or conflicting portions. But if my immediate family prefers beer to wine, I can go most places in the US and get similar beers, and go to a pub in the UK and also get beer there, it looks to me like the communities overlap each other just fine. And in other ways they don’t; I will never understand the British obsession with pies. But I would contrast that experience to sitting down at a Chinese restaurant and seeing a dish in a script I can’t even sound out with the translation of “fried pig colon,” which is a little unsettling, no matter how good that dish may taste.

So why would that poor Redditor feel like they don’t belong, like this foreign country operated under completely different values, and why was it so alienating to them? The direct answer is stupid: it IS operating under different values, and they feel like they didn’t belong in the community, but importantly they themselves felt this, it wasn’t something forced on them by that community. The community only had to work within its own cultural framework for itself, and when they try to slot themselves in they just don’t fit. I don’t claim it is good or fair, but it is what it is.

So why do some integrate, and some not? How did my spouse, here with me, transition from depression to happiness? Part of it is always stress, and the energy-sapping ways having to work harder to do mundane things; as we adjusted and learned, everything became easier, and the major hurdles like waiting for residency cards were cleared. But I think a big part of it is being willing to start seeing yourself as part of a different community, and not just learning about it but adjusting yourself to accept it. In the conflict theory view, your disparate communities can only fight for power over your identity, of which there is only so much to go around; assimilation comes when something wins out to create an uneasy peace.

Why don’t children have as much trouble assimilating as they grow up? I’m sure some feel “out of place,” but I would bet that the even the unhappy child fits in better than an average expat. But children don’t have preconceived, fully-formed identities fresh out of the box, they grow and develop them over time, and when embedded in a culture they usually take up an identity that is compatible with it. But a child should still be suffering under these 1000 cuts, right? They still must learn the culture. But I suspect that for a child, having the identity in place, without competing with another established identity, means that they are just learning and feel at home even if they don’t know everything. For them, there is no identity conflict.

The Identity Conflict versus a National Identity

What does an identity conflict look like? How do these cultural wounds manifest? I’ll focus in on one topic here: food. Everyone eats, normally a few times a day, so it’s inescapable. But at the same time, food is heavily nationally coded; right now I can open up a delivery app and filter restaurants not just by price or distance but by nationality. We talk about “comfort foods” and “national dishes.” We reference “abuela’s” or “nonna’s” or “oma’s” cooking. I think it’s as good a point as any.

I can walk into a butcher shop in Germany and ask for Rinderrouladen, one of my favorite dishes that my grandmother made consisting of beef slices rolled up with mustard, onion, pickle and bacon; they will correct me that I must have meant the beef slices, I assent, and they produce the requested number of slices from the right cut of beef without me having to explain the details. They will then ask if I want the bacon slices for it too. We both know what Rinderrouladen is, what goes into it, and everything works harmoniously. I can walk into a grocery store and browse at all the different sauerkraut options, then have an old lady come up to me and give me advice as to which brand is best (the store brand, apparently). I can even travel to Dresden to stumble over Eisbein, a pickled ham hock, and find out that it is almost exactly like the Christmas ham we had back home. It’s uncanny, but it’s also unbelievably comfortable; Germany is constantly reinforcing that I belong, that this is like home, that I will never be left pining for a taste of comfort food.

One of my colleagues is Muslim, not Turkish but from the MENA region, and at least moderately devout, including eating halal food. They are perfectly nice, but the differences in food culture were obvious during a work trip. For one, they couldn’t eat anything all day because of Ramadan. Then, I was surprised to find how restrictive the situation can be; not only can they not eat any pork, but they couldn’t eat other meat because it wasn’t killed in the required fashion; their sad story was of eating pizza four days a week on the work campus because that was the only vegetarian option. And they naturally gravitated towards places that served food like theirs from their home, staffed by people who spoke Arabic like them and kept food halal like they required. They talked about how things were in their home country and how much easier dealing with the restrictions were, for example if everyone is fasting during Ramadan it’s a shared trial and the culture adapts to it. This seems to be a common experience, that’s clear just by reading the experience of many Turks in Germany, e.g. where the first sentence about Turks retiring in Germany reads, “The last cups of Turkish black tea had been drained, the platters of olives and goat cheese cleared, but the snowy-haired Turks lingered at the table.” Or read about the proliferation of the doner kebab! Food is a critical part of national identity.

As another easily-visible point of difference, many, but not all, of these food differences stem from religious differences, but even in a country with freedom of religion and nominal secularization, Germany remains a religious-ish country. The holidays are mainly based on Christian holidays, and depend on each state, including each state’s primary denomination. In a country with church bells commonly ringing despite the “quiet hours” laws, German are not as comfortable with the Muslim muezzin, the call to prayer. I went hiking in the Bavarian alps over the summer, and there every hilltop has a cross or small chapel on it. I am unsure what my colleague thinks of all this, but it’s easy for me to see how the undercurrents of religion in a nominally secularized country could cause conflict.

This colleague is going through the normal naturalization process now. They are taking an integration course, and learning the language. By the quantifiable measurements, they were working harder to integrate than I was. But every time we dealt with anything culturally German, they treated it as strange and foreign, while for me it was normal and comforting. The conflict was not over lack of knowledge, but about lack of internal motivation or identification. And although the integration course might be able to make them speak some German and learn about Germany’s cultural values, I don’t think it can automatically change someone’s internal identity. I can’t peer into their mind, but my colleague might always be from their home country, in their hearts, and no matter how much knowledge of German culture they pick up may treat it as a password to get what they want.

In Catholicism, I have heard the sacraments (baptism, communion, marriage, etc.) called “an outward sign of inward grace.” The physical act of the ritual does not itself bestow grace, but brings it to fruition. I think citizenship is a little like that: a legal declaration of a cultural fact. And while God may be infallible and omniscient, we humans are stuck in the world of, at best, Bayesian inference. Gaining citizenship says that we hope the new cultural identity will win the struggle inside your mind, that by virtue of being physically present in Germany, speaking enough German and knowing the German values, the German identity will overcome any other, or at least come to a peaceful sharing of identity; the certificate at the end is just a marker of something we hope went on inside your head.

But I didn’t go through any integration course, or have to speak any German, or anything like that. Germany didn’t have to give out citizenship to people in my situation. It has been that way for about 50 years at the youngest for those born in wedlock, and working fine. Why change it? Why take someone like me whose grandparent came from Germany, and give them citizenship? Besides the simplistic answer that some powerful lobbying group got it changed, I think there is a deeper reason why Germany would be willing to make that bet, that the German cultural identity could win out.

Retvrn to Heimat

My absolute favorite German word is Heimat, which means “homeland” maybe. It’s more than that, though. The Heimat is not just where one is from, but denotes a more significant cultural homeland. I like to make it a -hood word: the neighborhood might be the local people around you, while the nationhood is for everyone in your country or statehood for the state, the Heimat is the cultural home-hood or people-hood, the place where you belong; imagine the phrase “it’s not a house but a home” applied to a society. Germany is not “the nation my grandparent came from,” or “the nation I live in,” it’s “the home nation.”

The Heimat has some important qualities that make it so powerful. Let me paint in broad strokes here. The Heimat is less physical than temporal and cultural. The Heimat has qualities of timelessness, both in that it can never truly be reached and that it is always changing (I could return to my childhood home, but it will never be the same as when I was a child), but yet it always contains those essential homely elements. It covers that essential need of belonging to a society, ensuring that you are valued and appreciated. It is more rural than urban, more social than physical and more cultural than economic, but overlaps both. I would strongly associate words like idyllic or bucolic with the Heimat and less pure happiness.

The Heimat is, I think, incredibly resistant to quantification, but still vulnerable to it. I am reminded of Seeing like a State, where the state apparatuses have the power to disrupt the natural, organic processes that have served so well but fail to see why these processes work for the societies that created them. Then the state moves in and destroys what was valuable to those who lived in it in an effort to create value that it can see and tax. I would contrast the Rust Belt to the strong German manufacturing base, as destroyed versus preserved identities.

My colleague’s Heimat is not Germany, and it probably never will be; they grew up in a different country and have a strong sense of belonging to that country. This is not inherently bad and doesn’t make them a “bad immigrant,” and perhaps their children or grandchildren will grow up in Germany and see things differently. But they aren’t participating in the same culture that most other Germans are, even if they can get around as a permanent outsider. They may, like so many people, never feel like they fit in.

Why did Germany take the bet on me? I think the concept of the Heimat sheds some light there: Germany was betting that it was my Heimat. That this anchor would let me accept the German identity and thrive in it. That, however tenuous my connection, it would be enough to make it stick. That I would be in my home here. Germany is the one and only ancestral Heimat I get, even if I grew up in the US. When I told my father that I had the certificate, the story he relayed to me was about when his mother was on her deathbed and they were arguing about something political, and he said that he was an American citizen, and she told him no, that he was a German. You just can’t conjure up that connection based on economic principles or a preferred lifestyle. It’s not random, I didn’t weigh the pros and cons of being French vs. German, it just always was.

And critically, Germany will always be the Heimat. Someone who came here for a better-paying job might leave if the economy falters. Someone who came because they appreciate the German stereotypes of punctuality or organization would run after dealing with the Deutsche Bahn’s chronic train delays or after the first six-month wait to hear anything from the Foreigner’s Authority. Someone who came for politics might find that the political winds change, and what then? I think it’s entirely related to Germany discouraging dual nationality, such as in naturalization. No one can serve two masters it seems. But I’m stuck with it, as are most Germans, and that commitment adds value.

Finally, I feel that I should give another point of view of the Heimat, one that claims the concept of Heimat is inherently exclusionary. I would say that the concept requires some exclusion; I don’t think it would be possible for people to share all possible values with everyone, as some are in conflict with each other, but a core part of the conflict will also come from a conflict of identities in my view.

The point of Germany being the Heimat isn’t that I naturally came in knowing everything. I knew a little, but there was a huge breadth of culture that I had to adapt to even beyond learning the language. But because I already had some seed of the right identity, there was no conflict; I didn’t have to build up a new identity or destroy my old one, I only had to learn, like a child. So, although I still had to do the work, I haven’t felt the sense as much of “not belonging” or feeling too much like an outsider; it is a thing to learn not an obstacle to overcome.

Closeout

I hope that was enjoyable for everyone. I am just one little opinion awash in a sea of them, but I think my path to citizenship was also a bit unique. The StAG § 5 declaration is pretty new still but was a path to citizenship that was very unexpected for me; it felt like being handed a winning lottery ticket, something I didn’t necessarily deserve, but it still feels right now that it’s complete. I don’t speak much German, but I comfort myself in knowing that I speak more than most Germans did when they became citizens, and look forward to learning more. And for anyone else with recent German ancestry looking to do the same, the law is only available for the next 9 years.

As far as citizenship vs. identity goes, I stick to my thesis that citizenship is a hopeful claim by the government that you have implanted the right identity into your head to truly assimilate into that culture. And I think Germany is an interesting nation and culture to examine as it has a very different history of immigration compared to e.g. the US, UK or France. More broadly, the ideas of identity and belonging could be applied to other communities.