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Wellness Wednesday for October 21, 2026

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My left shoulder is almost fine, and I was able to bench press last Sunday without aggravating it, though I stayed away from my highest working weight. My warm-up was 50% shoulders already, but I added some empty can raises to it. I am getting back into squats, slowly adding more weight. My gym has a new pendulum squat machine, but it's always occupied by buttmaxxing women, so I haven't tried it yet.

My personal magnetism and general vibes went way up recently. The amount of people approaching and talking to me in public has went up from basically zero to multiple per day. I'm getting a lot of compliments on my clothes, haircut, and dancing, but those haven't changed at all. I got a first date off a spontaneous interaction, first one in a while. (Didn't go anywhere though).

Internally, I feel a lot more Aware and clear headed. Going to briefly list out interventions I've been doing that I think have contributed. Hopefully this helps any lurkers that feel unpleasantly stuck in their head.

  • No recreational/performance enhancing drugs (20 days). Benefits appeared around day 5.
  • 2 drink max limit on social drinking.
  • Only focus on one thing at a time. No glancing at phone while watching TV. No listening to music while reading news.
  • Consistent sleep schedule. (Feel more tired on net, objectively getting more done)
  • 5htp daily, once in morning once at night.
  • Reading print novels. Whenever possible I try to sit in the sun while reading. Massive same day brain fog reduction.
  • Up class my youtube consumption. Anything that feels trashy or brainrotty I skip. I'm mostly watching animated films and lectures now.
  • Replace doomscrolling with watching anime/playing story based games.
  • Accept all social invitations by default. Host more social stuff at my house. Makes it feel less like a depression chamber and more of a home base.

Other effects/benefits

  • Much higher extroversion. Much higher social battery. I had people over at my house every day for six days straight before I needed a break.
  • General improved cognition. Improved coding/problem solving ability. Improved reading speed.
  • Becoming wittier and funnier. Faster at wordplay and quicker to catch things.
  • Lower neuroticism. Bad shit happens, I don't get as shook.
  • Posting more to social media
  • Much stronger preference for fruit and hot meals? Idk why but that's happening.

Any other medications you're taking other than the 5-hydroxytryptophan?

Not really. I have about 200 mg of caffeine a day, either as a single energy drink or some coffee.

When you are born, you may be sure
As birches creak and willows weep,
As rivers swell with waters pure
And feathers fall from bloody beaks,
Though nightmare creatures stir in deep
Pelagic canyons far beneath
And sullen metal deities
Arise to flense you of what fleece
You chance to bear; and that bequeathed
By some alleged eminence grise
We cannot see—

Yet I shall shatter hallowed halls
And topple all the highest walls
And seize the devil by his balls
And HOLD until my face turns blue

I'll do this every day for you.

Lovely. Did you write this?

At about 01:00 today, yes. No baby yet. Wife bigger than I've ever seen her though so probably not long now.

Best of luck to you both!

Kill me, I've been put on yet another wacky project that I advocated for. I guess it's nice to be seen, but I really just want to scream into the void (that is the internet) because my mental sanity is collapsing under the weight of too many non-related projects, that I am expected to put serious time into, with serious reputational damage if I don't. I wish I could split myself into 3 people and then give myself an icepick lobotomy. I wonder if insurance covers those??

What's the etymology of the phrase "No rest for the weary"?

If you could split yourself into 3 people, kill your boss and let 1 of them do a life sentence in prison for it.

Nah I like my boss, I do want to murder-suicide one of the PIs on an existing project for being a controlling micromanaging twat. Every other burden is my fault for having too many interests and my boss for indulging me.

New Year's resolution check-in:

  • I'm several days behind schedule on my Substack posting. I think I'm a bit depressed and it's causing writer's block.
  • Went to the gym three times last week. I can deadlift 1.82x my bodyweight, squat 1.33x and bench press 0.82x.
  • Have not consumed any pornography since waking up on January 1st.

How goes it @self_made_human, @thejdizzler, @birb_cromble, @ThomasdelVasto and @falling-star?

Things are going well! IDR what my resolutions were but my life has been a bit of a cluster this year and I'm proud of where I'm at. Have been successfully writing a bit, got promoted, body feels good. Haven't gained a ton of weight, haven't lost any either. Overall think I'm in a good spot considering I recently ended an almost 7 year relationship and engagement.

You can take me off the ping list. My goals and priorities have shifted.

Noted.

I've been keeping. Stress levels are reasonable, though I occasionally have bad days. A single colleague calling in sick on a busy day can mean a ridiculous pile up.

I've also finally gotten to understand just how difficult managing eating disorders can be. There was a patient I was asked to opine on, who'd been seen by psych on a medical ward on a prior admission and not found to have an ED, on the grounds they weren't happy with their weight loss and had declared a strong commitment to improving.

I'd seen the patient, but didn't want to repeat an assessment or declare a new diagnosis other than possible ARFID because of the earlier opinion from a senior and a few real medical issues impairing eating. The med consultant had been rather peeved, and pointedly noted that the patient had ended up back in hospital a few months later in even worse condition. I had to concede the point, people can lie.

Or the med student with anorexia I saw recently. Both my seniors and the internists had noted her consistent tendency to use her medical knowledge to try and get her way and manipulate people, particularly her parents. Unfortunately for her, she's not very far into her course, and quite a few things she describes are somewhat ridiculous.

I'm not saying they're evil, far from it. They're very, very mentally ill, and the fallout is usually restricted to themselves. Some people can just do a very good job fasting themselves to death while declaring that's the opposite of what they want. I knew the stats, but it's another to see it for myself.

Sigh. I do what I can, when I can. It's sometimes enough.

Yeah, saying eating disorders are difficult to manage is putting it mildly in my book, and IME the ED itself tends to have other comorbidities that will inexorably come out to play over time. I don't think they're evil, either, but I do have to strongly disagree that the fallout is restricted to themselves because it exacts a heavy toll on their loved ones as well, even the ones that understand that it's something to be managed, not fixed.

I do agree that it's severely distressing to their near and dear ones, I could have phrased that better. I just don't think that the distress is all that dissimilar to what's seen with say, severe depression or schizophrenia. I'd contrast that with personality disorders, where there's more of a tendency to be actively malevolent instead of manipulation with the underlying goal of getting away with not eating.

Ahh, that's totally fair then. I'm tempted to rat-hole this whole thing further, but the truth is that I can only speculate as to the overlap between individuals with eating disorders and individuals with any flavor of personality disorder. Suffice it to say that I wonder if there isn't some underlying Thing that ties them together.

It depends on the disorder, the underlying psychology between bulimia, binge eating, and anorexia is wildly different.

Ponder the people you know and think about the people who use excess healthiness/exercise as an excessive compensatory mechanism. It's more than you might naively expect and that specific compensation is often associated with high achievers (and without gross personality dysfunction).

Meanwhile anorexia is often best modeled as a psychotic process (at least a psychotic level of functioning) that responds poorly to medication. Borderlines and other Cluster-B personality types usually have variable or sketchy reality testing, not absent.

Yeah, this is why I said I could only speculate, I'm only really familiar with anorexia, though I've been unhealthy myself in pursuit of my weight goals. That said, while I have the ability to ignore hunger until it goes away, I'm trying to be good to my body right about now.

Meanwhile anorexia is often best modeled as a psychotic process (at least a psychotic level of functioning) that responds poorly to medication. Borderlines and other Cluster-B personality types usually have variable or sketchy reality testing, not absent.

Believe me, I am aware.

Oh fuck I missed that part of your troubles. I am sorry that is some hard stuff.

Heh, yeah, I'm just sneaky like that!

ETA: Also, thanks! Can't agree hard enough with the absence of reality bit.

Oof. I used to have a close friend who was severely anorexic, to the point of being repeatedly hospitalised. Hugging her felt like hugging a skeleton, I could feel her shoulders pressing into me. It's awful to see someone wasting away like that.

  1. Work: continue to make slow and steady progress on the last part of my PhD.
  2. Fitness. Started training a bit for Boston. I'll be following a plan by John "Hadd" Walsh which I can't start until I get to about 50 miles/week, which should be some time in mid November. Added in a 10 minute stretching routine before bed, which should hopefully help with some injury/flexibility issues.
  3. Intellectual stuff: Finished War and Peace and War (hoping to do an effort post on this book soon, it was great), and have started listening to another audiobook of Turchin's which I am also really enjoying. Spanish has fallen a bit by the wayside, but that's okay because I'm reading a lot. I've fallen a bit behind on blog posts, but that's also okay as I've published quite a bit this year.
  4. Finances: Spending has been pretty bad this month because of three big purchases (Chicago marathon for next year, Shenandoah trip, and two rounds of metabolic testing for $400). Money from parents should help with being in the green for the month (money market dividends should be very large from the extra $200k I have in the account), but I still need to practice better fiscal discipline. Spending so far: $2775.
  5. Dating. Hung out with the girlfriend all of last weekend and she met some more of my friends.
  6. Tarot. No session this week.
  7. Socializing: Spanish happy hour, saw my friend Emory at the Baltimore marathon, hung out with my girlfriend's sister and husband.
  8. Screen time: 2.5 hours phone. Big new phone is really addicting.
  9. Meditation: Butyeko meditation sessions 3 x a week before bed.

Spending is $861.64 less than the same day last year. Slowly getting back on track.

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